Can’t face the world today

I didn’t sleep.

Well actually I did a bit. From 9.30 to 12 and then I got up.

I have a headache, my limbs ache and I feel so down.

I just don’t feel I can go on and I feel such a prick.

Why do I feel so low and why am I so weak in dealing with my problems? Problems that others face head on.

I think the usual answer is that I need to “grow a pair” or “man up” but I just don’t feel able to.

Fuck it.

I never used to be like this. What the fuck has become of me?

I feel like half a man. A poor imitation of what a man should be. A ‘fake’ man.